My dear sweet boy,
You ask why I do what I do. You cannot understand what I get out of what I do.
The way I feel today is why I do it. It is not all about the scene for me. I prepare it. I plan it. I make decisions about it. When I do all of that my whole body fizzes. Every cell in my being is alive and waiting. I can taste the anticipation. I no longer fear that you will not enjoy my plans. Even if they are spectacular failures they only add to the list of what I know about you.
On Wednesday night I showed you what it looks like when I don’t care. I could have been any woman and it did nothing for you.
I am not any woman though. I am your Miss and I do care. I care about all of you, about what you do, how you feel. I want you to know joy with me. I want your whole body to fizz.
I am so excited about tonight. I have made you a special present.
Are you excited?