Tag Archives: Domme

Nov 9 2012

30 Days of Dominance – Day 1

I stole this from Femi over on Deviantly Romantic.

Day 1 – Does your Dominance – either what you practice or what you strive for – have a label? Do you view your preferred Dominant style as Taken in Hand, Domestic Discipline, Top/bottom, Dominant/submissive, Master/slave, Owner/pet, or some other description or combination? If you do not use a label, why?

I am my boys girlfriend, his Domme, his owner and hopefully some day his wife.

From that list I am his Dominant.  How I dominate him changes depending on the day, my mood and the circumstances.

Sep 16 2012

I forget

I hate that I do it but I am not always on the ball and being not always on the ball with a boy that can easily slip into bratty is not a good combination.

When I remember I overcompensate and to be honest I don’t like that. I don’t like fighting for lost ground, trying to make back what I feel I am missing, something that I let go. And yet I love the outcome. I love the him that he is when he is swimming in the pool of domination, when all he wants is to meet my expectations, to not disappoint me any further.

Why can I not have that reaction from him without having to go crazy ass Domme on him? I know it is not him, I know it is me that forgot and remembered too late. I know it is me trying to claw my way back up the pedestal.

One of these days I will break a nail doing this shit!

Sep 11 2012

Dear Dommely Friends

If I have a problem in work with a colleague I look for advice outside the situation. If I have a problem with a friend or family member I look to my partner or a different friend or family member. All because sometimes I need the voice outside my head to talk to the voice inside my head so that I can come up with a solution, or a route to a solution.

What happens when I have a problem with my sub? I can’t talk to a colleague, my partner (the sub in question), my family or even my friends about what to do. How would I begin to explain the back story before I got to the issue? Then they don’t own the concepts of how we resolve conflict so it would be a pointless exercise.

So what do I do? Where do I go?

This week my boy has broken 6 of his 10 rules. All with a piss poor excuse and I am uninterested in excuses any way.

I am stuck between the idea that he broke the rules because he needs something from me and isn’t using his words and that he broke the rules because he is struggling with the changes that have been happening in our relationship lately. Of course he could have broken the rules because he is a lazy sub and doesn’t see that there are consequences for his actions. Right now in this moment I feel a little lost because I can’t think of a punishment that doesn’t also punish me.

I could make him sleep on the floor – but I like sleeping in the bed with him
I could deny him an orgasm – but that is one of the rules he broke and I enjoy that pleasure that is shared with him
I could tell him to not visit – but then I don’t get to see him, to be near him
I could take off his collar – but that is just plain cruel and to be honest over the top for the problem at hand

I could paddle his backside to the point of him not being able to sit down and while he is not a masochist he is a frubble so if the act makes me happy then he is happy but I don’t know that that is something I can or would do every time he breaks a rule. Why can’t he just get with the idea that the rules are the rules and they are not for breaking?

Back to “where do I go?”. The Interweb of course. I have a few “friends” online who are Dommes, none of whom live with their subs, all of whom are more geographically distant than I am from my boy, all of whom have a set of rules, all of whom struggle with the “what punishment doesn’t also punish me?” problem. It is time to ask my friends how they punish their boys.

If you have told me at the beginning that I would have friends who are Dommes, that I would look to them for Dommely advice or that I would be problem solving a grown man breaking his rules I would have laughed at you. I am not at the beginning now. Things have changed. Now I need to solve this problem.

Sep 4 2012

If I were a “real” Domme… Part 6

He has some yard work to do this weekend, to clear some space so that we can entertain outside (not that we will be entertaining anyone outdoors in September but he is already looking forward to next year). He told me today that he needs a garden fork to do the work.

If I were a real Domme I would make him do it with a dinner fork!